My husband suddenly passed away a week after our 49th wedding anniversary.
How I’m coping with what would have been our 50th anniversary and the first year of his passing: I did my own ritual starting with wearing his crucifix, taking deep breaths, reading this quote out loud: ” We took our vows together, said till death do us part, but when god came and took your hand, my whole world fell apart. No one knows the heartache I tried so hard to hide. Only god knows how many times I’ve broken down and cried. When I look back upon our lives, one of the things that makes me glad is that you chose me to share with you the precious years we had.”
Expressing my profound grief journey, I’m glad that god brought us together. I know it was god’s perfect timing when I lost you. You got to spend the rest of your life with me. I will cherish the memories forever. I know you are watching over me. Keep sending me signs. Always and forever. You have left an impression in all our hearts.
And to myself I say: Take deep breaths, Just Breathe!
To all those who have experienced tremendous grief, and are coming up on milestones like an anniversary, know that I am thinking of you and hope that you can find some space to take deep breaths.
From fellow griever, Beverly S.